Thursday, February 10, 2011
CW 234.8
DAMAGE;
TOTAL 0
PILLOW TALK 4
H20
1 2 3
Fuck,really? No weight loss? Awesome. On another note, I am about 10 seconds away from quitting my job, I literally can not do it anymore. I am drowning between 19 hours of school and 30-35 hours of work.
I am so physically and mentally exhausted.
♥
DAMAGE;
TOTAL 0
PILLOW TALK 4
H20
1 2 3
Fuck,really? No weight loss? Awesome. On another note, I am about 10 seconds away from quitting my job, I literally can not do it anymore. I am drowning between 19 hours of school and 30-35 hours of work.
I am so physically and mentally exhausted.
♥
Am i really never good enough for you?
6:12 AM
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6:12 AM
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Wednesday, February 9, 2011
CW 234.8
DAMAGE;
2 rice cakes 90
TOTAL: 90
PILLOW TALK 9
H20
1 2 3
It is cold and wet outside,UGH.
UPDATE 244pm
DAMAGE
Coffee 5
Honey 5
1/2 cup of Skim Milk 40
1/2 Cup of Chicken 100
1/2 cup of Broccoli 20
2 cups of Salad 30
5 Cucumber Slices 5
6 Croutons 15
1/2 hard boiled egg 35
1 oz of Carrots 12
TOTAL 357
H20
1 2 3
Update 758pm
DAMAGE
2 slices of Orowheat Potato Bread 200
1 Slice of Ham 15
Some lettuce 15
1 slice of swiss cheese 48
1/2 cup ofBroccoli and Cheese Soup 90
Diet Coke 0
TOTAL 725
H20
1 2 3
I had a conversation with my step dad of how out of control my life is right now and it made me really upset, I'm just so overwhelmed.School is bombarding me,Work is taking advantage of me, Jim and I are fighting and I can not stand to look at my body.
So, I purged.
I absolutely hate hate hate it but, I needed to feel like I was in control of some aspect of my life while the rest spins out of control.
It always makes my throat super sore for days but at the end it makes me smile, because I know the bad stuff is gone.
I know that I purged 90% of what I ate at dinner up since I didn't let it digest for long.
So I'm going to just guesstimate that my intake is now at 395,much better :)
DAMAGE;
2 rice cakes 90
TOTAL: 90
PILLOW TALK 9
H20
1 2 3
It is cold and wet outside,UGH.
UPDATE 244pm
DAMAGE
Coffee 5
Honey 5
1/2 cup of Skim Milk 40
1/2 Cup of Chicken 100
1/2 cup of Broccoli 20
2 cups of Salad 30
5 Cucumber Slices 5
6 Croutons 15
1/2 hard boiled egg 35
1 oz of Carrots 12
TOTAL 357
H20
1 2 3
Update 758pm
DAMAGE
2 slices of Orowheat Potato Bread 200
1 Slice of Ham 15
Some lettuce 15
1 slice of swiss cheese 48
1/2 cup ofBroccoli and Cheese Soup 90
Diet Coke 0
TOTAL 725
H20
I had a conversation with my step dad of how out of control my life is right now and it made me really upset, I'm just so overwhelmed.School is bombarding me,Work is taking advantage of me, Jim and I are fighting and I can not stand to look at my body.
So, I purged.
I absolutely hate hate hate it but, I needed to feel like I was in control of some aspect of my life while the rest spins out of control.
It always makes my throat super sore for days but at the end it makes me smile, because I know the bad stuff is gone.
I know that I purged 90% of what I ate at dinner up since I didn't let it digest for long.
So I'm going to just guesstimate that my intake is now at 395,much better :)
♥
Am i really never good enough for you?
8:23 AM
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8:23 AM
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
CW: 237.6
DAMAGE;
String Cheese 80
4 Strawberries 16
Small Banana 80
TOTAL 176
PILLOW TALK 7
H20
1 2 3
UPDATE @ 1024pm
DAMAGE;
1 Cup of Romaine Salad 20
1 TBS of Fat Free Ranch Dressing 15
1/2 cup of Soup with milk 90
String Cheese in Salad 80
Large Diet Coke 0
TOTAL 381
PILLOW TALK +5
H20
1 2 3
I came home and took a long nap because my head was killing me and I felt super nauseous.
I woke up a few minutes ago, not nauseous anymore but definitely still a bad headache.
UPDATE
DAMAGE;
2 Rice Cakes 90
TOTAL 471
DAMAGE;
String Cheese 80
4 Strawberries 16
Small Banana 80
TOTAL 176
PILLOW TALK 7
H20
1 2 3
UPDATE @ 1024pm
DAMAGE;
1 Cup of Romaine Salad 20
1 TBS of Fat Free Ranch Dressing 15
1/2 cup of Soup with milk 90
String Cheese in Salad 80
Large Diet Coke 0
TOTAL 381
PILLOW TALK +5
H20
1 2 3
I came home and took a long nap because my head was killing me and I felt super nauseous.
I woke up a few minutes ago, not nauseous anymore but definitely still a bad headache.
UPDATE
DAMAGE;
2 Rice Cakes 90
TOTAL 471
♥
Am i really never good enough for you?
7:58 AM
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7:58 AM
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Monday, February 7, 2011
Today got fucked,thanks Astronomy.
I'm eating Strawberry Sorbet while viewing Ana forums, oxymoron?
CW:237.4
DAMAGE;
String Cheese (3) 240
Bag of Apples (2) 60
1/2 cup of pineapple 83
2 cups of White Rice 337
1 cup of Broccoli 45
1 cup of chicken 85
1 sugar cookie 70
Pizza Bagels 320
Sorbet 75
Total 1315,holy moly.
Fatty mc fat fat.
I'm eating Strawberry Sorbet while viewing Ana forums, oxymoron?
CW:237.4
DAMAGE;
String Cheese (3) 240
Bag of Apples (2) 60
1/2 cup of pineapple 83
2 cups of White Rice 337
1 cup of Broccoli 45
1 cup of chicken 85
1 sugar cookie 70
Pizza Bagels 320
Sorbet 75
Total 1315,holy moly.
Fatty mc fat fat.
Am i really never good enough for you?
11:01 PM
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11:01 PM
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Sunday, February 6, 2011
Yesterday was fucking awful.
A customer made me cry at work, he told me I should find another job and I was terrible at customer service.
Asshole.
Then I came home and inhaled pizza and bitch beer.
That's only like 100000000 calories, no biggie,fuck.
Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow!
I am excited for tomorrow because ABC starts :)
Yay yay yay!
I did a modified version for me because if I fast that I will binge the fuck out of food if I see it.
Tomorrow is under 500.
Easy Peasy :)
♥
A customer made me cry at work, he told me I should find another job and I was terrible at customer service.
Asshole.
Then I came home and inhaled pizza and bitch beer.
That's only like 100000000 calories, no biggie,fuck.
Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow!
I am excited for tomorrow because ABC starts :)
Yay yay yay!
I did a modified version for me because if I fast that I will binge the fuck out of food if I see it.
Tomorrow is under 500.
Easy Peasy :)
♥
Am i really never good enough for you?
1:21 PM
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1:21 PM
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Saturday, February 5, 2011
I look at this blog as a failed attempt.
As a huge fucking fail and nothing else.
I am so sick of yo-yoing up and down on the scale.
So SICK of being the fat girl at parties, and so fucking sick of waiting for my boyfriend to find some gorgeous girl to fall in love with.
Just sick.
I've gained 21lbs since being back to college,honestly,get a fucking grip.
I just whatever whenever.
Yeah, fuck that.
May is coming.
Which is going to be a month of changes.
I'll be moving into my apartment, I'll actually be considered as on my own.
Independent.
I don't want to be FAT.
I don't want to be this anymore.
Either I lose the weight, or die trying.
I feel so empty, so overwhelmed.
Everything is out of control, especially my eating.
I can do this, I HAVE to do this.
As a huge fucking fail and nothing else.
I am so sick of yo-yoing up and down on the scale.
So SICK of being the fat girl at parties, and so fucking sick of waiting for my boyfriend to find some gorgeous girl to fall in love with.
Just sick.
I've gained 21lbs since being back to college,honestly,get a fucking grip.
I just whatever whenever.
Yeah, fuck that.
May is coming.
Which is going to be a month of changes.
I'll be moving into my apartment, I'll actually be considered as on my own.
Independent.
I don't want to be FAT.
I don't want to be this anymore.
Either I lose the weight, or die trying.
I feel so empty, so overwhelmed.
Everything is out of control, especially my eating.
I can do this, I HAVE to do this.
Am i really never good enough for you?
12:33 AM
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12:33 AM
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Thursday, November 11, 2010
Amber Heard
CW 229
DAMAGE;
0
TOTAL 0
PILLOW TALK 0
H20
1 2 3
WORK IT OUT
BURNED
DAMAGE;
0
TOTAL 0
PILLOW TALK 0
H20
1 2 3
WORK IT OUT
BURNED
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Am i really never good enough for you?
12:27 AM
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12:27 AM
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